La Vida Loca

Vida (spanish.life) Life is a gift, accept it. It is an opportunity, grab it. It is a puzzle, solve it. It is a mystery, unfold it. It is sorrow, overcome it. Life could be crazy... but it is BEAUTIFUL!

Friday, May 13, 2005

Write, Left, Write, Left...Write!

I write because I have so much to say to you... In this big big world, there's just so much to talk about....there's just so much to share....I share my world... Care to share yours?

Manag Biday

Read lifestylebohol (the bohol chronicle) every sunday... (mao ni punchline!)

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Looking at Life

I often take time to look at life and ponder upon it. I look at myself and how I have become... of how life has unfolded before my very eyes. Have I lived a full life?

I look at myself. I look at myself through others. I look at others. I look at what I have become because of them. I look at them and how they have become because of me. Have I lived a full life?

I look at myself. I look at how I basked in the sun, how I got drenched in the rain... of how I treasured the flowers and how I felt its thorns. Have I lived a full life?

I look at you. I look at you with me... I look at myself with you... And yes, life has turned out well, indeed!

(Yahhhooooo! Thank God for family and friends...)

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Heart's Murmur...

How could life roll on like this? It seems endless... How could smiles come and fade away? How could tears do the same? Each day cannot promise the sun... yet it cannot tell when the rain would come. One could never tell what each day would bring. One could never tell what's in store... One just have to live with it... waiting.

(achu chu! hehe!)

yes... i'm waiting!

Friday, April 08, 2005

Balak

Dili
man unta ko kamao mosuwat
apan
magsuwat ko…

Dili
tungod sa akong gugma sa pu’ong
Ug sa akong pagkuti-kuti niini…

Dili
tungod sa akong gugma sa pagmugna
ug mga damgo ug mga gingharian sa panganod…

Gani,

dili
sa pagpadayag sa akong mga nasinati,
sa akong mga huna-huna,
mga panglantaw ug gibati…

Nagsuwat ko…

Kay pinaagi niini
ako kang maangkon-
kung dili man ikaw,
basin ra ug akong maangkon
ang imong pagtagad
niining pitik sa panahon
sa imong pagbasa.


Nov. 20, 2004
Written just before the Alona Kew Night Out with
KAKA and friends

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Song of the Bewildered

What is it there for me
under the sun?
What is it there for me
to learn, do or shun?
Is there anything
if I dare to rise and fall?
Is there anything
if there is anything at all?

What is it there for me
I'd care to know
What is it there for me
If I'd step on the "GO"?
Is there anything
beyond the strife
Is there anything
If I'd fight it in life?

*Yes, is there anything for me
If I count the days?
Anything if I run the race?
Perhaps- if I fight the odds
is there anything
beyond flowers,
thorns
and buds?

What is it there for me
under the sun?
What is it there for me
to learn, do or shun?
Is there anything
if I dare to rise and fall?
Is there anything
if there is anything at all?

(Written at Starbucks DLSU)

Not Just Another Quaint Story... by: La Vida Loca (This is actually untitled!- A speech delivered during the UBDHS Prom 2005)

I would like to tell you a story- a story which has become a part of our contemporary culture, a story which is very close to our childhood or youthful hearts. (You’ll know why later!)

Far away, in a distant galaxy, there was a planet which was on the verge of extinction. Well, eventually we learned that it has exploded and ceased to exist today. What happened were only speculations hypothesized by scientists. Perhaps, the planet and their inhabitants had weapons of mass destruction and had a very destructive war that caused a very bad economic crisis, that lead to hunger and death. They could have famine, disease and other natural disaster that wiped out their entire existence.

But before everything went bad, a loving father has managed to put his little baby into a spacecraft and sent him to the third planet of the neighboring galaxy called, “The Milky Way”. And as fate would have it, the spacecraft, among meteorites and kryptonites, landed on a village called, “Smallville”. The little boy was Kalel. He eventually became Clark Kent, the discreet identity of the more popularly-known “Superman”, the man in a tight blue suit with a billowing red cape who saves people from calamities, criminals and other “forces of evil”. (Who does not know Superman here? Raise your hand! Who knows Superman? If you have not heard about this man, you must come from another planet.)
Perhaps, everyone knows this superhero whose story evolved from comic books to movies in the 50s, 70s and 80s; to several TV series in the 90s to endless cartoon series kids of all ages perpetually watch. People even mourned and protested when he was killed in the comic books and writers had to revive him. Yes, we adore Superman. He is our archetype of the good and the beautiful who is up fighting the bad, the horrible and the evil. He is every kid’s superhero; every man’s fantasy.
But what made Superman Superman? What made him to become what he has become? Aaron Spelling wanted to show us how when he came up with the new TV series entitled, “Smallville”. (Who watches Smallville here? Raise your hand!) He placed Jonathan and Martha Kent (Superman’s adoptive parents) on the foreground in the storyline of each and every episode. Yes, before there was a “Superhero”, there was a young boy who was well-loved, well-taught by his parents and well-molded to become a loving son, a good friend, a diligent student, and a responsible member of the society.

We have our respective Jonathan and Martha Kent in our lives. Our own Kents are the people who love us and support us. These are our mommy and daddy, our mama and papa, our tatay and nanay. They may be our brothers and sisters, our grandparents and other relatives. Our family may not even necessarily be of the same gene pool as ours but they are the people who have become a part of the mold that made us what we are.

I would like to quote a specific segment of Smallville in Season 2 wherein Clark Kent discovered a message sent by his biological father. The message said that Kalel was sent to become a god among the flawed human race and rule among them. Clark was appalled to learn about the message and he concluded that he could have misread it. He was disappointed to learn his “destiny” as a conqueror of the human race. So, Jonathan Kent faced Clark and said, “It’s you who decides what kind of life you’re gonna lead. Not your mother, not your biological parents.”
“What if it’s a part of who I am?” Clark replied. Is that the kind of person I will become?”
Jonathan replied, “Clark Kent, you’re here to be a force for good. Not a force for evil.”
“How can you be so sure?” the bewildered Clark asked.
And Jonathan answered in a matter-of-fact manner, “Because I am your father. I raised you and I know you better than anyone.”
And the rest is history. Fastforward- Clark Kent became Superman, the hero.
But what made Superman a hero? Is it his special powers? Does being able to fly and strike things with a laser beam make him one? Perhaps, that’s what made him special but what made him a hero is how he uses these special gifts to make his community a better place.

What about you? What are your special gifts? What can you do to make your community a better place? What have your own parents or your family taught you? What have you become? You don’t have to become Superman to be able to do something for others, for your community or your nation. You don’t have to be in the government service- you don’t have to be a governor or a president of the Philippines- to be an asset in our nation building. You don’t even have to go out of your way to be a part of our nation building. For all we know, our “nation” is within our territorial bubble. Perhaps, our nation is the family that lives over our fences; or perhaps, they are the children playing across the street or the people we meet on our way to school. Your nation is your classmates, friends and your teachers in the classroom. And remember, you don’t even have to go out of your territorial bubble to make something extraordinary. Remember, the difference between ordinary and extraordinary is the little “extra”. The best that you can do is to become an asset, not a liability to your community- to your nation. The best that you can do is become a better you. For nation building starts within ourselves. Start from being a good son or daughter, a good friend, a diligent student, a law-abiding citizen. Remember, we cannot change people to make this world a better place. We cannot go out and tell people, “You change! Make this world a better place!” We, ourselves, can make it better.
Whatever you do, whatever you dream of becoming- you may want to become a nurse, a doctor, a physical therapist, wherever you go- may it be to the United States, the UK, anywhere, always remember to be a Superman, in your own little ways. And remember to be a Jonathan or a Martha Kent to your family, to your nation.

We might have our own green or red kryptonites that weakens us in our life’s journey but let it not stop you. Just remember what your own Jonathan and Martha Kent has taught you- the values, the beliefs, the ethics, the morals that they have passed on you.
In your life’s journey, just remember that you have your own Lana or Chloe, or Pete, or your own Kents or your own Smallville waiting to be proud of you.
So whatever you do, be a hero in your own little ways. Good luck and God bless us all.

Thank you very much.

Homecoming

“No, I live there,” was my earnest reply to a lawyer seated beside me on the plane during the one-hour flight from Manila to Bohol. He was comfortably sleeping half of the time during the flight while I was having difficulty sitting due to my lower back pain (which needs physical therapy). When he woke up, he started a conversation. I wasn’t really in for a talk but being the “friendly and hospitable” Bol-anon that I am, I wouldn’t want to disappoint him. He asked me if I’m just visiting Bohol and I said, “No, I live there.” He then innocently asked me what tourist spots are found in Bohol and I answered in a matter-of-fact manner- the Chocolate Hills, thousands of them! And he threw me a surprised look, “Really, it’s in Bohol?” Tickled and partly irritated by his lack of knowledge about my home land, I gave him a rundown of a few tourist spots in Bohol. But not wanting to sound like a tourist guide wannabe, I only mentioned the “postcard” tourist attractions- the beaches in Panglao Island (which Bohol is famous of), the Hinagdanan cave (the more famous one among the many caves in Bohol) and of course, the Tarsier (the world’s smallest primate). I didn’t mention more hills, falls and rivers and I forgot to tell him about the great dive sites, the whales and dolphins (which I’ve yet to explore) and the wild cats, the flying lemurs and other “exotic” fauna. I didn’t have the chance to tell him about the centuries-old stone churches and other historical sites around the province. Really, “It’s All In Bohol!” It wouldn’t surpass Boracay as the No.1 tourist destination last year if Bohol isn’t that wonderfully blessed. And if he’d only knew, he wouldn’t want to miss the world famous Loboc Children’s Choir sing their arias. Indeed, Bohol is home to some famous musical personalities- does Yoyoy Villame or Luke Mejares (my childhood crush) ring a bell? Hmmm….what about these personalities: Cesar Montano? Carlos P. Garcia? Anyone?
Bohol may not be economically advanced and living in it might be provincial but I’m proud of Bohol. I have always been proud of Bohol- of its wonderful places, its history and its people. And yes, I am proud to be a Bol-anon. The Bol-anons are known to be brave and strong-willed. We’re not descendants of Francisco Sendrijas- the well-known Dagohoy- for nothing. But we are the friendly ones, too (if not the gullible ones- depending on which side of the issue are you) being descendants of Datu Sikatuna, who did a Sandugo with the Spanish conquistador Manuel Lopez de Legaspi. Thus, Tagbilaran City, the lone city in Bohol, is known as the City of Friendship. And well, with all the biases (and colonial view on beauty?) I considered the Bol-anons to be beautiful with our mixture of Spanish and Chinese lineage.
Indeed, living in a place takes more than knowing the place. It’s more than being in it or knowing its history and one’s lineage but growing with its history and being a part of it. Real living, in its true essence, is the experience and the bond within one’s community- the people in it, the friends and loved ones.
But I am now a bit troubled by my earnest “I live there (in Bohol)!” statement. As I ponder, it now seems to be half-truth having been away for almost 10 years- having studied and worked in Metro Manila and coming home only on Christmas breaks and a few weeks of summer vacation. But I said to myself, “I am home now,” having decided to come home and stay while finishing my graduate thesis (although I’d still fly to Manila from time to time).
I know, deep in my heart, I will always be a true-blue Bol-anon. But having been away for quite some time has cut me off from the community. I’ve even called this stage, “Alienation”. Things have changed. People have changed. They have come and gone. And my usual sentimental me declared my self- “alone and friendless.”
I know that it will take time to reestablish ties. But I see the opportunity to rediscover myself as a member of a community where everybody is connected to everybody in one way or another (think of the virtual Friendster page you have- only this is real!). Ours is a community where one can trace each other’s lineage or locate each other’s hometown through one’s surname or through one’s mere intonation of voice. Ours is a community so small that going to the mall or eating at McDonald’s means bumping into relatives, friends, old teachers and old flames. In fact, so small that riding a tricycle in the city needs only a landmark- a building or someone else’s house- to get to one’s destination. And even smaller that sending letters to folks in the towns needs no LBC but can be through a bus driver who can drop your letters on time. Yes, it’s time for me to rekindle old ties and develop new ones and become part of the community once more.
For starters, I’ve recently come to reconnect myself to a group of budding writers, the KAKA (short for Kaliwat ni Karyapa). Karyapa was a Boholano babaylan and the first recorded poet/scribe in Philippine history. Also, kaka in Bisaya means spider. Thus, KAKA- weavers of dreams, castles and lives. I haven’t been with the group in years and I was surprised to learn that the group is still burning with its love for the words, for the Balak or the Bol-anong Binisaya in particular. We used to hold poetry readings among ourselves and every now and then hold workshops with the well-known Bol-anon writers, Marjorie Evasco and Merlie Alunan. Last July, during the Sandugo Celebration, we held a literary arts workshop for campus writers. We also held an event hailed as “Balut, Beer ug Balak” wherein people from all walks of life were welcome to pour out their love for the Bol-anong Binisaya. Some came with their works ready, some came blurting out passionate words extemporaneously in exchange for a San Miguel and balut.
KAKA, is indirectly connected with Bahandi, a group of visual artists who are also known for their poetry and prose in Bol-anong Binisaya. This group is composed of established and award-winning writers. Once in awhile, the group would meet and share their thoughts and friendship with our group. KAKA, being under the umbrella of the Bohol Center for Culture and Arts Development, is also somehow connected with a group of visual artists (which is in a need for a permanent name). KAKA, having visual artists as “adopted” members to the group, would give full support to the artists by gracing their exhibits and other events and the latter would return the favor. One friend called it, “Arts Fusion”.
It is heartwarming to rollback time. As a kid, I’ve been to summer art classes and exhibits under Mrs. Nene Lungay, an experienced painter and teacher. She and Napoleon Abueva studied under the famous Fernando Amorsolo at the UP. I never really get into drawing and painting though while some of the more creative students have now established themselves as painters and teachers, too. Tagbilaran City by summer has little children scribbling and painting here and there. In recent years, Napoleon Abueva, the National Artist for Sculpture and commonly known as Manong Billy, would come home to Bohol and hold his own summer arts workshop on sculpture.
Recently, a friend who’s an artist himself talked about putting up a camera club, a film arts club or a book club. I’m pretty on the go for these. And if things would push through, I’d be most happy.
As I write tracing these groups in my life, I’ve come to realize that living in a community doesn’t only mean living in a space you call your home, your subdivision or your hometown. Yes, real living is having a community of people who shares your interests, your values and beliefs in life. Yes, real living means knowing your neighbors, having friends and a group you call your own.
As I end this article, I’ve made some mental notes on what to do next since I’ve already gone down to the beach port a kilometer away from our house to take shots of the sunset and reconnect my ties with the folks selling camote, puso (rice packed and cooked in woven coconut leaves), tuba and kuja (big clams). Next I would go around the city…to the town plaza, to the malls, to the market, to my old school and hope to bump into old faces and build my community once more.
Yes, Bohol, I’m finally home!

Friday, April 01, 2005

Life is Beautiful

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